Just A Clip...

Laze around doing nothing; surfing while waiting for his game to finish...and as usual...fb-ing and that’s when I saw the clip...

Life is idiosyncratic and I never doubt of its miraculous existence. Sometime somewhere somehow you have been thinking that it will end the way you have always speculated, always dreamt of; but in real life things just ain’t going to be the way you have always wanted it to be…

Often enough in life, decision is just about making an action, getting a resolution or mouthing a statement; but people often overlook the fact that some lil’ decision we’ve made is going to affect the whole lifetime of ours…or maybe others too.

Sometimes we just never realize…with one turning…there the whole game of life altered. With one mistake done; no rectification could ever be done. With one decision made; all the moments shared together become irretrievable memories of eternity…memories with no common future in place…

Sometimes you just wonder; does it worth it? All the hardship, sweetness and thick and thin you’ve undergone together; washed down the drain due to slightest misunderstanding; a moment of frustration and a foolish act of ego-surrounded mind?

A clip worth watching…and a lesson worth to be remembered…

If You Were Me...

If being indifferent is not a good choice; what about craving for more?

Which is better; indifferent or demanding?

Which is bearable; apathetic towards disappointment or frowning over it?

Should I apathetically brush off the discontentment or stain my cheeks over it?

If you were me, which way to go? ...I wonder

If You Are To Pluck Roses, Get Ready To Be Pricked!

Every matter in life comes with an action with commitment needed and sacrifices anticipated. Should you think you are ready for the thing you set to do; get ready for the unexpected hurdles and either you overcome the hiccups with a great laugh or sulking and licking your wound for thing doesn’t turn out the way you expected. To think that things will always in favour of you, it will be a wishful and vain thinking just like hoping to strike a jackpot when you didn’t even pull the slot machine’s handle.

When your plan didn’t work out; cry a lil’ and get over it..it’s not the end of the world…betterstill; get a contingency plan! God granted us with a super-computerized brain not for it to get rusty nor rotten over the age but for us to fully utilize it throughout the entire lifespan. To think about it, how many of us have been using it anyway?

A Summary of An Ending And A New Beginning...

It has been a long time since I last found the passion to blog again...it might be due to the horrendous working life which everyone seems to sulk upon...or caused by the fact that I've been adapting a new habit of contemplating and bottle up all the things...not willing to share or talk 'bout it....hated myself for the new habit acquired but hopelessly give in...

There has been a so-called paradigm shift in my life for the past three months...from the luckiest gal on this earth having all the basic necessities, a fulfulling dream job and a devoted partner who was so promising...to a tear-stained out-of-love and aimless lost spirit passing each day like a walking zombie. I thought I couldn't make it to see the next sun shine for having all the roadblocks and barriers of obstacles pouring and smashing right into my face...until I met some angels sent by God who selflessly picked me up from where I fall...dedicatedly gather my pieces of broken heart, soul and mind ... and taught me how to stand up again by my own...

Slowly and pain-stakingly; I learnt my way to leave the past behind...not all of course but the very least I could now talked 'bout it without shedding tears...for the mind-trending memories were too much precious to me...

Eventually...the fate played a trick upon me again...for He walked into my life not long after I learn how to stand up again...and once again I am struck by dilemma...for wanting to start anew yet fear to try...for having interested but dare not to commit...

At last...I gave it a go and really hope it works this time around...How the future will be? It will be revealed as time goes by, I suppose...till then...

A New Beginning?

It is a new beginning for sure...yet the lil' heart doesn't seem to be at ease...wonder if it has been in dormant for years...and therefore having a shock for a restart...or...is it because it has been badly wounded and therefore self-defense mode automatically kicks in? I wonder...

And of course she yearns for a new beginning...a new breeze of life...a new soul to share her world...for she knows if she never try to walk out from the dark; she will remain in pitfall towards eternity...

And of course she feels the fear pounding hard inside; the ghost of memories fills her eyes and the soreness of past tear her down...for the longer trail walked the longer footsteps left behind...

No doubt her mind begged her to stop...pleaded to cease the doubt and follow the heart...for sense and sensibility is just as hard...

Would she be able to overcome the fear? I wonder...

Would she want to have a new start? No doubt...

Would he be the one? ...

A Dream I Had...

I had a dream...


A dream of sweetness ... and a dream leads to substantiation...

A dream which reflects yearns and concerns

A desire to undertake

A wish to be fulfilled

A decision to be made

A verdict to trail the following destiny...