Fairytale About You & Your Secret Admirer...

Did you ever dream of having a secret admirer in your life? Well, I did. When I was young, I often imagined when I finally step into a career world, I would have a secret admirer carrying a torch for me; secretly yet meticulously shower his attention towards my need.

I would always dreamt to receive tiny weeny cards on my table, maybe some bonbons or even suprise, a bouquet of purple roses smiling sweetle at my workstation; ready to embrace the bolt of the blue expression of their beloved owner!

I still remembered during schooldays, whenever there is a gift exchange or gift delivery campaign happening during Valentine's, Christmas and other occasions, every girl will be anticipating to receive gift from a special someone or...from a secret admirer. The moment your name is being called to receive a gift from the despatch, the pleasure is totally beyond words.

If the sender happened to be your friend, you will feel their warmest care. And if the person turned out to be your special someone, then love is in the air...And when you received a gift from a total stranger...that is when the magic sets in.

You start to hallucinate...dreaming of the slight possibilities of having a prince in the knight armour riding on a white horse to ask your hand in matrimony. What a perfect fairytale to come true...

Well, I admit that I still have the dream lingering on...what about you?...

Being Sick Is A Torment...

My body has totally been battered since I took up this job. Honestly speaking, I haven't really have a good day rest from the day I joined till this moment. There will always be unexpected things rolling in and keep me all over the place...How I wish I have Monkey King's ability; to transform my hair into little little Shawn and cascade my tasks to them...Phew!

Being sick for the entire month left me with threadbare energy to focus on aspects of life. I don't shop, watch movie, cook or do tiny little thing that I used to make a fuss of. I don't even dare to call back home and talk to mum; for she will know that I fall sick and it is unbearable for her to worry about me again; when she have so much things to brood over. Being a challenging juvenile back then has caused her enough tears and pain. I wish her no more agony for the rest of her remaining years.

Dear my blogs fans, do not fret over my health. I am on the road to recovery and in no time, you will see the shiny lovely and charming Shawn blogging away happily again...till then...adios!

My Mother ... The Feline Of Hearts

A ferocious feline, yet tempestuously doted her cubs…A timorous hen, yet courageously fight against danger for her chicks. A careless cow elephant who never fail to provide haven for her young…Have you ever encounter anyone described as above? If yes, then you have met my Mother.

I remembered how every other folk used to reticently laugh at her; being a mother who bore 5 daughters and bear no son. I remembered how people sneered at her being ignorant to Chinese custom. I remembered how people looked down on her for working in slaughterhouse to earn a living…And I remember how proudly she posed in my graduation picture; being the last child who obtained scroll in our family.

Being deprived from education doesn't impede her from educating us the importance of knowledge. Being deficient in cooking skills doesn't forbid her from feeding us; and being underprivileged doesn’t bar her from providing us with the best that she could afford.
My mom is not highly educated. She is not well-groomed to be a lady. She knows no tradition nor having a sense of fashion. She is just a little woman whom everyone thinks she is; washing clothes, providing food and beating kids. In fact, she doesn’t even know how to cook a storm!

And YES…She is my mother…a mother irreplaceable in the child’s eyes.

A Night Out In Cybercafe...

Grab a Slurpee from 7-E and eased myself into the dirty seat in Cybercafé. The weak line at home forced both of us outta our beloved nest and squirming uncomfortably in this rundown place. Have a good chat with Ying, and ever-funny Daizee and of course the sick yet tetchy Sean Lee!!! OMG..Anyone who know him please just don’t mention this to him!!!

Feeling much better now … after having a long chat over the lunch with Sab…talking ‘bout everything bout our work…parents, family, future, vision, romance…and it was like talking to an old buddy...sharing everything from ups to downs…Suddenly I felt it was heavier for me to let her walk away so soon… A short-lived period of apprenticeship…

Yet it was a relieve I felt when I see the fire, the passion reflected in her eyes when she speaks about PRU. You can almost feel the energy swirling in her, lighting up the spirit. It gave the final endorse to the reason for her to leave. I wonder when and where will I find the same passion... same flickers of flame within me in my future career path? That will certainly be a mystery to explore on…

Another farewell around the corner...Why am I always in the picture?

OMG! OMG! OMG! Am I doomed to receive such ill-fated life in my career path?!!! Same conspiracy, same scenario, same decision...hopefully not the same outcome...sigh

Just when I started to settle comfortably in my new environment, looking forward to a greater height with my ever-loving boss, Sab; the DISASTER came!!! Just like what Kelly did to me last time, she did it again...:(...but of course I'm always happy for they are heading towards greater laurels in their career pathway. As what Ying told me, never rest on your laurels...I'm growing up, sis!

But what truly comfort my emotion is that she has the intention to bring me away when it is the right time...No matter it was a genuine intention or just as a courtesy, it made my day:) It felt great when someone appreciate your help around them and wish to take you along when they are going for good....I'll be waiting for you like a damsel in distress..haha...make sure you come back and save me in knight costume...

Anyway, it's a shame that we will only be working for such a short period of time...There are eons to learn from you...and that's the sincere piece from my heart. Getting to know you left no regret in my life. You have been a supportive boss, passionate friend, wise advisor and truly a confidante. Hopefully, we'll be colleague again soon after this:)

Let's not cry over spilt milk and try to cherish the numbered days ahead! Carpe manana!

Horrendous Days Endured So Far...Yet I Have No Lament

Phew! Finally, I have time to sit down and write!!! Or should I say…I received too much of complaints from my dear beloved sister who is a fan to my blog and therefore under her encouragement, enquiries and threatens, I finally ooze some time out of my deadly-exhausted mind and body to write this piece of bloody article.

Being involved with a listed company really made the difference. You don’t have time to laidback, no time for casualties and almost no time for anything!

As soon as I settled in the second day, I was assigned to conduct the next Orientation while my boss is on ONE week training leave! During the weekends, we traveled to Penang for my sis’s wedding and played around a tight schedule lasted with bulldozed mind and body.

Finally, when we came back, I conducted my First Orientation with newbie who were as fresh as I was! God help them if they were clueless with what the hell I was gibberish about ‘coz I myself were as confuse as they were! Have I mentioned about how I survived thru the days without my boss around where I simply have no idea how to handle some anonymous people who emerged from nowhere? Yeah… and you won’t want to know how monstrous a training provider could be when they are running after you for payment…simply delicious!

Next, the BIG thing came…Team-building! Lasted for two days but the experience and fun and delirious backache were just- Marvelous!!! And what’s more electrifying than that? ...It’s that I get to go again to the same teambuilding for 3 more batches….Yippee…God…Just let me diE!!!!

Straight after the teambuilding, no MC no nothing…get back to work again. Orientation again with super sexy coarse voice and deadly zombie-like demeanor. Followed up next, one whole week of viruses, germs and bacteria invading my body up to this very moment…and I’ve got several Big Projects to be tucked safely under my profile. Isn’t that just perfected the whole scenario?

However, I seriously didn’t regret to take up this job regardless the rubbish I mentioned aboveJ Because of all these, I get to know what I am capable of, my body limits and of course…How far I can stretch before the rubber band snaps...Hohoho….

To be honest, I appreciate all these hustle and bustle albeit I’m very much preoccupied now. From here, I get to learn eons of thing which I can never dream to achieve should I continue stagnant in my previous comfort zone…well…if it’s ever considered as a comfort zone: p

I am very much indebted with my current superior, Sab…as she’s the one who made all these possible…She’s the one who determined who to recruit and I hope by now she didn’t regret for bringing a monster onboard…Ha-ha…

Well...pen-off for now…Save some juicy stuff for next round. Carpe diem!