A Song From Sweet Brats..."Sweetness"

Browsing through my old trunk in lappy and accidentally found this piece of masterpiece...a song written by one of my students in Malacca during my final year practicum. A brilliant and tender-hearted kid; a brainy who challenged me at the very first sight of me...thinking who the hell is this Chinese girl trying to be a smartie here? Well, within 3 months time, this is what he wrote for me...Ladies and gentlemen, presenting..."Sweetness"


'Sweetness'

You really so sweet
Visitor in the sleep
Thought you were mean
Turn out u so keen

You just came to teach
But you a bit childish
You good in English
But your slang were funny with it

Chorus
We love you so
We love you Ms.Wong

Dont forget the whole
thing we'd done in 3 months long

You a funny lady
Sometimes silly to me
Always back me up
No matter i'm down or up

Chorus

Solo(not finish yet...hehehe)

It is time for you go
Sure hard to let go
It is your job
Hope you never stop,but..

Only I know,only I know
Only we know
You really important in one life's show

Chorus

Remember us RK brat
Only make you mad
Promise won't be bad
No need to feel sad


You like it? When I received it, I couldn't help but dampen my cheeks. It's not about what I achieved in my result or my practical outcome albeit I scored an A for that subject. It's a personal achievement; a whole-hearted recognition given by those lovely brats...accolades which further strengthen my belief in delivering my sincere effort spending in educating them rather than just to complete my practical. It makes me reflect on how true it is when I named this blog as The Garden of Sow And Reap...Whatever you sow is whatsoever you reap one day...It’s the law of karma…and I’m glad that I sowed unconditionally back then.

A Day At Gym Wakes Me Up...

A friend asked to destress at gym...and I agreed without thinking...feeling that it's time to turn all the volcanic eruption into a positive energy. And off we went; and that's when I found out that...I'm old d, man!I didn't even complete a 30 minutes workouts!!!

When the treadmill started to get going ...faster and faster...and I started to focus in keeping up the pace; that is when the old sensation came alive! Just focused at keeping up the pace...sapping away all your troubles and worries. Just stay aiming at achieving your goal...nothing more nor less! Eventually, I managed to drag on for 25 minutes...well, at least I stayed on the track that long after years of hibernation!!! Hah

The drenched and exhausted Shawn is what I see in the mirror...and that healthy glowing silly face is nostalgic...which I haven't seen in years...The face freed of worries and facade...the real innerself...how I wish to turn back time...to be myself again...

I found that I've slowly losing it all after entering the career world. I lost my principles, my genuine-self, my passion for life and my personality. Somehow somewhere in my life, I started to hate myself. Reflection of the ugly drenched duckling inside the mirror is like a wake-up call; reaching out to me...begging my soul to bring her back; back to where she once inhabited.

Hopefully once I pick up the rusty gear I will keep it going...and regain my trueself again. Once again, thanks a lot, Mickey...you are one good buddy! Thanks for letting me mirroring back myself one more time.

Dear Kiara...

Baby, Mommy missed you much. I dreamt of you again. The nostalgia gushed back into my mind again, counting on how much fun and joy, pain and grief we had together. Remember the blog I tried very hard to write for you after you’re gone? Well, Mommy did it yet never publishes it up to now…for there is never enough room to describe you; for your existence in my life is beyond word.

The guilt still never leave me though; for I never get the chance to see you one last time; to tell you how much you meant to me and to hold you one final time. When Mum told me that you were gone, you couldn’t imagine how I went through my days…barrels of tears and life in avalanche… you will definitely heartbreak to see your beloved owner in despair.

I remembered how you used to be there for me all the time, wagging your tail; devotedly waiting for my return from school.
I remembered how I used to share with you my stories; for you gave me assurance that you never kiss and tell. I longed for the ticklish sensation when you gnawed my ears. I yearned for you to lick my tears away. And now, I ached for you are not here when I needed you most…Mommy love you, my sweet child…

Liar Liar The Truth Is On Fire...

I've been educate not to tell lie...and I've read "The Boy and The Wolf". I wonder if those who have read the book still not enlightened by the moral of the story. I hated liar...and disgusted by the fact to have them around me.

I've always been eulogized to be witty and proud of that...but now I've finally come to the point to know what a dim-witted child I am...Being fooled and kept in the dark...until this very moment of truth.

Well, I guess that's not a bad thing to discover by now. At least I get to know that not everyone deserve my kindness, truthfulness and friendship.

Thank you for enlighten me in real life, practically with a deep punch, leaving a perpetual mark to remind me it's always good to have the benefit of doubt on my side. I'm fooled but I'm glad to experience this setback...for I'll be wiser in future. Thank you, my DEAR FRIEND!

A Sinner I Am...

Forgive me God for I have sinned. I promised myself for I won’t succumb yet I failed. Circumstances are meant to be alluring and human is doomed to be tested with only two outcomes; success or failure…and mine the latter. I entrusted myself so much that the relinquishment put me into shame and notoriously labeled my life for eternal. Should I be given another chance to choose, would I still make the same decision? I have no answer…for time can never be restored.

Current situation only consent a path which I must follow and will always do – Make a choice and never look back! I’ve gained this message from my beloved sisters and it has helped me to be who I am and where I belong now… and this will be the guiding light I will hold on to now…

Who ordain the norm?

There’s a common believe that guy and girl can never be best friends. Well, at least that’s what most people believe in. I used to challenge the belief once upon a time; when I was very much a confidante to Wei Hon. Eventually we drifted apart and other encounters started to take place in my life…and I became one of the myth believers. I started to reckon that best friend can never be from opposite gender as either one will eventually have a crush on the other…And today, I proudly reclaim my once-deserted tenet…Soul mates are regardless gender and age.

Fairytale About You & Your Secret Admirer...

Did you ever dream of having a secret admirer in your life? Well, I did. When I was young, I often imagined when I finally step into a career world, I would have a secret admirer carrying a torch for me; secretly yet meticulously shower his attention towards my need.

I would always dreamt to receive tiny weeny cards on my table, maybe some bonbons or even suprise, a bouquet of purple roses smiling sweetle at my workstation; ready to embrace the bolt of the blue expression of their beloved owner!

I still remembered during schooldays, whenever there is a gift exchange or gift delivery campaign happening during Valentine's, Christmas and other occasions, every girl will be anticipating to receive gift from a special someone or...from a secret admirer. The moment your name is being called to receive a gift from the despatch, the pleasure is totally beyond words.

If the sender happened to be your friend, you will feel their warmest care. And if the person turned out to be your special someone, then love is in the air...And when you received a gift from a total stranger...that is when the magic sets in.

You start to hallucinate...dreaming of the slight possibilities of having a prince in the knight armour riding on a white horse to ask your hand in matrimony. What a perfect fairytale to come true...

Well, I admit that I still have the dream lingering on...what about you?...

Being Sick Is A Torment...

My body has totally been battered since I took up this job. Honestly speaking, I haven't really have a good day rest from the day I joined till this moment. There will always be unexpected things rolling in and keep me all over the place...How I wish I have Monkey King's ability; to transform my hair into little little Shawn and cascade my tasks to them...Phew!

Being sick for the entire month left me with threadbare energy to focus on aspects of life. I don't shop, watch movie, cook or do tiny little thing that I used to make a fuss of. I don't even dare to call back home and talk to mum; for she will know that I fall sick and it is unbearable for her to worry about me again; when she have so much things to brood over. Being a challenging juvenile back then has caused her enough tears and pain. I wish her no more agony for the rest of her remaining years.

Dear my blogs fans, do not fret over my health. I am on the road to recovery and in no time, you will see the shiny lovely and charming Shawn blogging away happily again...till then...adios!

My Mother ... The Feline Of Hearts

A ferocious feline, yet tempestuously doted her cubs…A timorous hen, yet courageously fight against danger for her chicks. A careless cow elephant who never fail to provide haven for her young…Have you ever encounter anyone described as above? If yes, then you have met my Mother.

I remembered how every other folk used to reticently laugh at her; being a mother who bore 5 daughters and bear no son. I remembered how people sneered at her being ignorant to Chinese custom. I remembered how people looked down on her for working in slaughterhouse to earn a living…And I remember how proudly she posed in my graduation picture; being the last child who obtained scroll in our family.

Being deprived from education doesn't impede her from educating us the importance of knowledge. Being deficient in cooking skills doesn't forbid her from feeding us; and being underprivileged doesn’t bar her from providing us with the best that she could afford.
My mom is not highly educated. She is not well-groomed to be a lady. She knows no tradition nor having a sense of fashion. She is just a little woman whom everyone thinks she is; washing clothes, providing food and beating kids. In fact, she doesn’t even know how to cook a storm!

And YES…She is my mother…a mother irreplaceable in the child’s eyes.

A Night Out In Cybercafe...

Grab a Slurpee from 7-E and eased myself into the dirty seat in Cybercafé. The weak line at home forced both of us outta our beloved nest and squirming uncomfortably in this rundown place. Have a good chat with Ying, and ever-funny Daizee and of course the sick yet tetchy Sean Lee!!! OMG..Anyone who know him please just don’t mention this to him!!!

Feeling much better now … after having a long chat over the lunch with Sab…talking ‘bout everything bout our work…parents, family, future, vision, romance…and it was like talking to an old buddy...sharing everything from ups to downs…Suddenly I felt it was heavier for me to let her walk away so soon… A short-lived period of apprenticeship…

Yet it was a relieve I felt when I see the fire, the passion reflected in her eyes when she speaks about PRU. You can almost feel the energy swirling in her, lighting up the spirit. It gave the final endorse to the reason for her to leave. I wonder when and where will I find the same passion... same flickers of flame within me in my future career path? That will certainly be a mystery to explore on…

Another farewell around the corner...Why am I always in the picture?

OMG! OMG! OMG! Am I doomed to receive such ill-fated life in my career path?!!! Same conspiracy, same scenario, same decision...hopefully not the same outcome...sigh

Just when I started to settle comfortably in my new environment, looking forward to a greater height with my ever-loving boss, Sab; the DISASTER came!!! Just like what Kelly did to me last time, she did it again...:(...but of course I'm always happy for they are heading towards greater laurels in their career pathway. As what Ying told me, never rest on your laurels...I'm growing up, sis!

But what truly comfort my emotion is that she has the intention to bring me away when it is the right time...No matter it was a genuine intention or just as a courtesy, it made my day:) It felt great when someone appreciate your help around them and wish to take you along when they are going for good....I'll be waiting for you like a damsel in distress..haha...make sure you come back and save me in knight costume...

Anyway, it's a shame that we will only be working for such a short period of time...There are eons to learn from you...and that's the sincere piece from my heart. Getting to know you left no regret in my life. You have been a supportive boss, passionate friend, wise advisor and truly a confidante. Hopefully, we'll be colleague again soon after this:)

Let's not cry over spilt milk and try to cherish the numbered days ahead! Carpe manana!

Horrendous Days Endured So Far...Yet I Have No Lament

Phew! Finally, I have time to sit down and write!!! Or should I say…I received too much of complaints from my dear beloved sister who is a fan to my blog and therefore under her encouragement, enquiries and threatens, I finally ooze some time out of my deadly-exhausted mind and body to write this piece of bloody article.

Being involved with a listed company really made the difference. You don’t have time to laidback, no time for casualties and almost no time for anything!

As soon as I settled in the second day, I was assigned to conduct the next Orientation while my boss is on ONE week training leave! During the weekends, we traveled to Penang for my sis’s wedding and played around a tight schedule lasted with bulldozed mind and body.

Finally, when we came back, I conducted my First Orientation with newbie who were as fresh as I was! God help them if they were clueless with what the hell I was gibberish about ‘coz I myself were as confuse as they were! Have I mentioned about how I survived thru the days without my boss around where I simply have no idea how to handle some anonymous people who emerged from nowhere? Yeah… and you won’t want to know how monstrous a training provider could be when they are running after you for payment…simply delicious!

Next, the BIG thing came…Team-building! Lasted for two days but the experience and fun and delirious backache were just- Marvelous!!! And what’s more electrifying than that? ...It’s that I get to go again to the same teambuilding for 3 more batches….Yippee…God…Just let me diE!!!!

Straight after the teambuilding, no MC no nothing…get back to work again. Orientation again with super sexy coarse voice and deadly zombie-like demeanor. Followed up next, one whole week of viruses, germs and bacteria invading my body up to this very moment…and I’ve got several Big Projects to be tucked safely under my profile. Isn’t that just perfected the whole scenario?

However, I seriously didn’t regret to take up this job regardless the rubbish I mentioned aboveJ Because of all these, I get to know what I am capable of, my body limits and of course…How far I can stretch before the rubber band snaps...Hohoho….

To be honest, I appreciate all these hustle and bustle albeit I’m very much preoccupied now. From here, I get to learn eons of thing which I can never dream to achieve should I continue stagnant in my previous comfort zone…well…if it’s ever considered as a comfort zone: p

I am very much indebted with my current superior, Sab…as she’s the one who made all these possible…She’s the one who determined who to recruit and I hope by now she didn’t regret for bringing a monster onboard…Ha-ha…

Well...pen-off for now…Save some juicy stuff for next round. Carpe diem!